*sigh* okay so if you guys don't know I have a super sweet bf. He's always talking to me, making sure i'm okay, and standing up for me every time. Thing is he's in Conneticut and I'm in California. It's an internet relationship, but it's going way better than i thought.

Now, I found this guy in my own town that I've been crushing on. He might actually like me back and idk what to do. Tell me bf i wanna break up? Just ignore this feeling? I really don't know This guys is so sweet and thoughtful. He's going through all the same things I have and I can talk to him easily. It's like we kinda connect.

I don't want to hurt my bf. I do have feelings for him and I'd hate to see him get hurt. So many other people have hurt him..... i don't want to be one of them. Thing is i remember the last time we almost broke up. He..... got really depressed and wanted to hurt himself. I didn't know what to do but in the end we stayed together.

What if he tries that again? He's a foster kid and he might come to Cali next year but ..... idk i really want someone i can spend my time with right now. Someone to hold me when I'm down or talk and hang out with.

Lately my bf's been so busy with school and even though i am too i'm always online even if I'm doing homework. I always check to see if he's online when i'm home, but he's not. I miss him and I feel so alone. Idk what to do.... T~T